My precious gems...

I can't understand why I'm getting emotional whenever I look at this photo.



Is it because mas magaganda sila sakin? hahahaha... Nope!
It's because I now realized that my babies are no longer babies... time flies ika nga...

Ate Bea seems to be a teenager in the photo already.. She knows how to project when the camera is in front of her. Such an elegant Ate...

And Denise... my little Potpot..my sweet little angel who kisses and hug me all the time, my little girl who loves being embraced just to be able to sleep at bedtime...

I will cherish these moments that I can still hug you both in my arms...
Not that I don't want you both to grow up but if I can just hold the time and not let it pass, I will... just to keep you within my reach always...

I want you to just be with daddy and me forever... my precious gems...

Missing you....

..Just needed...

when i was still in my college days, nasabi ko sa sarili ko na hindi ako pupunta sa malayo just to earn a living. It crossed my mind, yes, but it did not stayed there for a day... Mahirap kasi, for me, my husband and kids to be.. nasabi ko sa sarili ko, being an OFW child. Maliit palang kasi ako nag aabroad na ang papa ko kaya alam ko na mahirap yon...


Pero life will give you things that would make you change your mind.. I now thought of going out of the country to seek opportunities to earn more. Habang bata sabi nila eh igrab na ang opportunities if meron kasi it might never come again...


But the struggle now is convincing myself that I can last not seeing my kids for months and not being there for my husband once he comes home.. hindi ko ata kakayanin yon!?!



pero kailangan eh... there is more of a need rather than a want to go outside... konting sakripisyo lang naman ito ngayon... just for the meantime... this will not be for life... for sure!

Happy Birthday my dear Denise!!!

Sabi ni Denise "mommy, wag kana ofis.." Though its an everyday routine, today is an exception, I felt like it was a birthday wish i need to grant my birthday girl... but i can't.

Pagpasensyahan mo na anak if hindi makakapagleave ngayon si Mommy... marami kasi akong kailangang tapusin sa office... Di bale i'll be home early today, promise yan! harangan man ako ng sibat.. hehehe... Mommy will be home early.



Happy 3rd Birthday Potpot!! my super daldal, super kulit and super lambing na tabachoichoi...

Month end na naman!!!!

Month end again...

Busy na naman ang Cypress Finance...
at month end means overtime... di bale looking forward naman ako sa month end ehh...
dami ako natututunan... there's a feeling of accomplishment everyday... Marami ako na ggain na learnings, magiging magaling akong Financial Analyst! Promise...

Makukuha ko rin ang PO8 level...**cross fingers*** :D

Envy and Jealousy...

these are 2 words that I hate most....Envy and Jealousy.

I've known jealousy since i was kid. I was jealous daw of my younger sister kasi she always gets the attention of mama. Hindi ko man napapansin na my reaction reflects jealousy na, basta nakakaramdam lang ako na niinis ako because i don't get the attention I was expecting from another person...kay mama. But later on I've learned na same pala kami ng feeling ng sister ko... me jelly feeling din sya sakin. Minsan kasi when your mind is set into something it omits other information. Like un, meron din palang kina jejelly sakin ang sister ko but what I was thinking before eh ako ung di napapansin. Jealousy shuts down your thinking capability...

Envy...you envy people because you think they have more than what you have right now, they have better car than yours, bigger house, bigger savings, higher pay, successful than you are and because you think they are happier than you. I know in myself that i do get envious sometimes, but I don't let it get into my nerve. I know it won't do me any good... I believe that everything will fall into its proper places at the right time. One thing I've learned in life is that you should not rush things into your life. God knows the perfect timing... Trust him for he has better plans than what you have in mind. He knows your desires and listens to your heart. If you envy other people's achievements, it hinders your own happiness... so try not to compare yourself with others, start counting your blessing. Could be that you have more than what that person has...

Jealousy is simply and clearly the fear that you do not have value.
Jealousy scans for evidence to prove the point - that others will be preferred and rewarded more than you. There is only one alternative - self-value.
If you cannot love yourself, you will not believe that you are loved.
You will always think it's a mistake or luck.
Take your eyes off others and turn the scanner within.
Find the seeds of your jealousy, clear the old voices and experiences.
Put all the energy into building your personal and emotional security.
Then you will be the one others envy, and you can remember the pain and reach out to them. ~Jennifer James

Jealousy in romance is like salt in food. A little can enhance the savor, but too much can spoil the pleasure and, under certain circumstances, can be life-threatening. ~Maya Angelou

In jealousy there is more self-love than love. ~François, Duc de La Rochefoucauld, Maxims, 1665