Greatest Disapproval

Greatest Disapproval


Many of us unconsciously believe that we're unworthy. We adopt this belief very early in our lives, when the people we looked up to disapprove our demands, wishes and behaviors. We then conclude that we are no good.

The greatest disapproval is not when others put you down, it is when you put down yourself.

Lead me Lord...

These past few days... i have been feeling so low and sad. I don't exactly know why. Nalulungkot lang ako and marami ako masyadong iniisip. I guess yun yon eh... marami akong iniisip... mga bagay na pwede namang hindi pero once it crosses my mind it stays there and won't leave for a while..

Do i need a friend to talk to? I am not sure... Probably a psychiatrist? No...
I just need you Lord to guide me in my decisions during these low low days. Please make me strong enough to face all challenges each day... Please dont let go of my hands oh Lord when my faith seems to be slipping away...

My faith in you will help me overcome whatever difficulties, worries and fears i've been feeling these days... Lead me lord...

Lead me Lord
Lead me by the hand
And make me face the rising sun
Comfort me through all the pain
That life may bring
There’s no other hope
That I can lean upon
Lead me Lord
Lead me all my life

Walk by me
Walk by me across
The lonely road that I may face
Take my arms and let your hand
Show me the way
Show the way to live inside your heart
All my days, all my life

You are my light
You’re the lamb upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need You there
You are my light I (just) cannot live alone
Let me stay by Your guiding love
All through my life
Lead me Lord

Lead me Lord
Even though at times
I’d rather go alone my way
Help me take the right direction
Take Your road
Lead me Lord
And never leave my side
All my days, All my life

You are my light
You’re the lamb upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need You there
You are my light I (just) cannot live alone
Let me stay by Your guiding love
All through my life
All through my days
Lead me, O Lord
Lead me Lord

Our house...

As i've promised, here is a glimpse of our home... almost done pero marami pa ring gagawin. No paint yet outside though inside there is 30% accomplishment already on the paintings.

sana matapos na... we are about to move in by end of May... I hope medyo ok na by that time. Kahit naman hindi pa sobrang tapos basta lang wala na masyado alikabok, ok na kami...sana talaga matapos na! ***cross fingers****

Congratulations to COMELEC!!!

I would like to commend the COMELEC for being able to successfully implement the first ever automated election in the history of the Philippines. Despite some glitches, issues with the PCOS machines and more, i would like to conclude that it was indeed a successful one! Kudos COMELEC! Cheers!

Were you counted? Did you bacame part of our country's history? Were you able to exercise your right to choose the people that will shape our children's future?

I DID!!!! I am proud to have done my part as a citizen of this country.

Despite the long voting queus, the hot weather, the long wait... I was able to cast my vote!


I almost gave up when i was not able to find the precint where i was suppose to vote. I admit, it was my fault. I forgot to check my precint number in the IDs being given by the local candidates, i can check it in the posted list though but because of the number of people looking at the list, i decided to go back home and get the ID. Too late, i found out that there's a helpdesk where you can ask for your precint number! Gosh! I should have seen that earlier than going back home!!!! And stupid me, I do not even have an ID, i was just so lucky that mama is going back home to get hers, she volunteered to get mine nalang. Thanks Mama!!!

Anyway, going back to the queu, i'm very blessed that Chec, Papa and I belong to the same cluster (various precint nos. in one cluster) hehehe, I did not have to fall in line again since they've been on the line already early on. Thank God!

Now it's time to cast my vote... we spent less than 10 minutes in the voting area. First, presented my ID, casted my vote, fed the ballot in the PCOS machine (glad that the machine accepted my ballot on my initial feed), finally, indelible ink. Yehey!!!! Done at last!!!!

I know that the future is uncertain, but i still believe that we can change it now by choosing the right person to lead us. I am not loosing hope with the system, I believe that the Philippines will be able to cope up and be at par again with the other developing Asian countries. Maybe not in my time. So i am entrusting the future of my children to those I have voted!
Go Philippines!!!! Mabuhay!

Letting God hold the Wheel

We all encounter problems. I do not think there is anyone out there who doesn\'t have a problem, or have never had and never will find himself in a situation when the odds are against him or her. Having problems is part of our lives.

Being a Christian we are told that we should put all our worries to the Lord. That\'s what the Bible says and what our pastors teach us. But as the saying goes, it is easier said than done.

With some problems it is simple to let God take care of it for us. When we have a fever, we pray; we ask God to take care of the health problem for us. If people treat us bad when we talk of our faith or preach outside on the streets, we let God handle them.

But when the problems become real hard or real personal that\'s when it becomes difficult to put our problems in God\'s hands. When people talk about us behind our backs; when our friends suddenly become our bitter enemies; when our unbelieving loved ones prevent us from going to church...these are the times when we want to do something about it.

I don\'t know if doing something about it is wrong or right. And I don\'t want to decide either. I don\'t want to be a judge.

What I do know is that it is a normal human reaction. If you touch something hot, you snatch your hand away. If you are hit, you either hit back or just cry. It is a human trait to fix (or fight) a problem that is wrecking havoc on your life.

A Christian trait, on the other hand, is letting God hold the wheel and fix the problem for us. Be still, He tells us, and know that He is God.

I keep these words in my mind and try to be as still as I can. It isn\'t easy. Everyone has a limit to the physical, emotional and mental pain that one can endure. What God asks of us, is to go to the very limits and step over our boundaries. And that is harder.

But I think that\'s where faith is. When we can\'t see the edge anymore, when we are being led to the uncharted territories of our personal experiences that\'s the time when we fully trust in God. When we don\'t know what\'s going to happen yet we still say to God, You are in command, Father. I will be fine. I\'ll stay put. I\'ll believe,that\'s faith.

Having faith doesn\'t mean, we are just going to sit down and do nothing; but having faith doesn\'t also mean we should be like John Rambo in our approach “diving headlong into a problem with guns blazing. Having faith means we should wait for God to show us what to do, and when we learn what that us, then we have to do it. But before the answers come, before the storm ends, we must be still, because God is able.

Resource Reading:

Psalms 46:1-1

Article from http://www.pmcc4thwatch.org.ph/

mommy... you're so busy....

I admit I have always been busy in my life. I am the type of person who doesn't want to stay in one place. I love to go out or do something else once in a while. I was once known to be so "lakwatsera"... since I love going out with friends, even just to the houses of my friends just to make chika...

But when I got married, some things changed...well in some aspects. I am busy still but not that "lakwatsera" anymore. My priorities have shifted from myself to my family. Before, I used to go out with friends so often pero hindi na ngaun. I love bonding with Ate Bea and Denise more. I still love strolling in the malls but now with my 2 super kulit kids. It feels heaven when you see them so happy and satisfied kahit minsan naiinis nako sa sobrang kakaturo ng kung anu anu... hehehehe


Pero lately... I have been so so busy, juggling my career, family and personal life. I have so many things to do everyday. So many things going on in my mind, i have to think of the construction, bea's school activities, Denise's needs, household needs, work deliverables and some personal stuff. Nakaklimutan ko na nga minsan if nakakatulog ako eh! That's how busy I am and I do not realize that....


Pero do you know what made me realize that I have been very busy these past few days (or months already)? rather who made me realize that... Ate Bea.... She was always asking me "Mommy, me pasok ka pa?". And whenever I answer her "Yes Ate meron pa..." I will always get this reply... "Mommy, lagi ka naman umaalis eh... kahit wala kang pasok umaalis ka parin.. D2 ka nalang...." Parang nagising ako and I realized that I have been stealing the time for my kids already. It's breaking my heart pero I have no choice, It's a one woman team ika nga. I am the only one in charge of everything kasi wla si Nelson. How I wish I can explain that to them the way they will understand it...

For now I have no choice, konting tiis nalang anak... Mommy will be back home soon....