Say you’re sorry, that face of an angel comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time coz I honestly believed in you.
Holding on the days dragged on, Stupid girl I should have known,
I should have known…
That I’m not a princess, this aint a fairytale
I’m not the one you’ll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell.
This aint Hollywood that was a small town.
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to come around …
Baby I was naïve, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance.
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know…
That I’m not a princess, this aint a fairytale
I’m not the one you’ll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell.
This aint Hollywood that was a small town.
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to come around …
And there you are on your knees,
begging for forgiveness, begging for me…
Just like I always wanted but I’m sorry
Coz I’m not your princess, this aint a fairytale
I’m gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now
And its too late for your and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now…
The thoughts, dreams and stories that made up my whole being - that made up Gelay...
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Monday, September 27, 2010
transfer... transfer... transfer...
I'm on this road again... again and again...
Why haven't I thought of these when I made a decision to leave DB....
...Transfer would mean new work environment, new people to work with, new learning curve... and adjustment, adjustments, adjustments....
I hate this feeling of being alone, and the feeling that you do not know the process... you do not know what to do, how to deal with the people and how to deal with the environment... Gosh!!!!
It makes me wonder why have I decided to leave?
1st - Finance work... i would want to go back to the real accounting work...
2nd - i want my normal life back... normal shift and normal sleep...
... i want to play with my kids after office hours...
...i want to teach Bea her lessons... I want to bring her to school in the morning...
Ok so these are the reasons why i decided to leave... without taking into considerations the other factors that should be considered...
Maybe it was just me... I should learn how to appreciate my current situation, this is life when I have decided to transfer... and i should bear with it. I know I will be ale to adopt to the changes... ako pa... Kaya ko to!!!!
Why haven't I thought of these when I made a decision to leave DB....
...Transfer would mean new work environment, new people to work with, new learning curve... and adjustment, adjustments, adjustments....
I hate this feeling of being alone, and the feeling that you do not know the process... you do not know what to do, how to deal with the people and how to deal with the environment... Gosh!!!!
It makes me wonder why have I decided to leave?
1st - Finance work... i would want to go back to the real accounting work...
2nd - i want my normal life back... normal shift and normal sleep...
... i want to play with my kids after office hours...
...i want to teach Bea her lessons... I want to bring her to school in the morning...
Ok so these are the reasons why i decided to leave... without taking into considerations the other factors that should be considered...
Maybe it was just me... I should learn how to appreciate my current situation, this is life when I have decided to transfer... and i should bear with it. I know I will be ale to adopt to the changes... ako pa... Kaya ko to!!!!
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Bea's 7th Birthday preparation...
It was actually a month long preparation... with lots of worries, computation, re-planning and everything... Gosh! I am not really sure if Bea's birthday will push thru... why? because of financial matters... you know!
I just resigned from DB and was new to Cypress. I had no pay since Aug and my next payday will be on Sept 25. That was my worry! Where will i get the funds?? I can't disappoint Bea... she has been waiting for that day to come. I know she has been counting the days till Sept 17... kakayanin ba ng puso ko makita si Bea na malungkot sa 7th birthday nya? A big NO!!!!
Buti nalang Daddy loves Bea so much.... and he was there to support her daughters big day...
3 weeks before Sept 17, while i was on vacation and completing my requirements for Cypress, I went to Divisoria to buy Bea's souvenir. The party's theme is Disney princess and Cars. So I went on hunting for good things to buy in Divi. What I have in mind is that they should be useful... less candies in the lootbags please. What I have chosen is Princess and Cars bag as lootbags, to be filled with pencils, notebooks, coloring books, stickers and hanky... useful right?
It was really fun! ako ang nag enjoy sa kakapili ng pwedeng ilagay na kasya sa budget ko. I only have 2k then, including fare and meals so I really have to watch what I was buying... Glad i was able to buy naman what I need and what was in my mind.
2 weeks to go... I have been searching and calling establishments for the chairs and tables. I want to compare prices kung saan mas makakamura... My idea was to have a clown, kahit walang face painter, basta may games that kids will enjoy. With balloon decorations para maganda rin. But my idea equals money... balloon decorations will already cost me 3,500.
1 week to go but I was still torn on the venue.... Bahay or clubhouse? Bahay would mean renting tents with worries if it rains while clubhouse is a little costly but with less worry... kaya sa clubhouse nalang...
Balloon decor... sabi ni Chec ako nalang daw ang mag decorate. With a little help from youtube's how to videos, I will be able to decorate Bea's party with less cost. hehehe buti nalang Chec have brilliant ideas!!! Madali lang pala, effort lang ang kailangan... with this I've learned that I can have a new career as balloon decorator! hahahaha
Chairs and tables, it was with Jecas party needs of Ms. Lotis, I saw their site in the web... mai-try nga... I booked for their Clown and face painter and tables and chairs for 70 persons with out any deposit...san kapa?
Everything is going as planned... food nalang ang kailangang isipin... 1 week to go and I am still thinking if it will push thru... I was already crossing my fingers and was praying to Him to guide me. I'll let Him take care of the rest... i don't like to worry too much... i know He will be there to help me as always....
I just resigned from DB and was new to Cypress. I had no pay since Aug and my next payday will be on Sept 25. That was my worry! Where will i get the funds?? I can't disappoint Bea... she has been waiting for that day to come. I know she has been counting the days till Sept 17... kakayanin ba ng puso ko makita si Bea na malungkot sa 7th birthday nya? A big NO!!!!
Buti nalang Daddy loves Bea so much.... and he was there to support her daughters big day...
3 weeks before Sept 17, while i was on vacation and completing my requirements for Cypress, I went to Divisoria to buy Bea's souvenir. The party's theme is Disney princess and Cars. So I went on hunting for good things to buy in Divi. What I have in mind is that they should be useful... less candies in the lootbags please. What I have chosen is Princess and Cars bag as lootbags, to be filled with pencils, notebooks, coloring books, stickers and hanky... useful right?
It was really fun! ako ang nag enjoy sa kakapili ng pwedeng ilagay na kasya sa budget ko. I only have 2k then, including fare and meals so I really have to watch what I was buying... Glad i was able to buy naman what I need and what was in my mind.
2 weeks to go... I have been searching and calling establishments for the chairs and tables. I want to compare prices kung saan mas makakamura... My idea was to have a clown, kahit walang face painter, basta may games that kids will enjoy. With balloon decorations para maganda rin. But my idea equals money... balloon decorations will already cost me 3,500.
1 week to go but I was still torn on the venue.... Bahay or clubhouse? Bahay would mean renting tents with worries if it rains while clubhouse is a little costly but with less worry... kaya sa clubhouse nalang...
Balloon decor... sabi ni Chec ako nalang daw ang mag decorate. With a little help from youtube's how to videos, I will be able to decorate Bea's party with less cost. hehehe buti nalang Chec have brilliant ideas!!! Madali lang pala, effort lang ang kailangan... with this I've learned that I can have a new career as balloon decorator! hahahaha
Chairs and tables, it was with Jecas party needs of Ms. Lotis, I saw their site in the web... mai-try nga... I booked for their Clown and face painter and tables and chairs for 70 persons with out any deposit...san kapa?
Everything is going as planned... food nalang ang kailangang isipin... 1 week to go and I am still thinking if it will push thru... I was already crossing my fingers and was praying to Him to guide me. I'll let Him take care of the rest... i don't like to worry too much... i know He will be there to help me as always....
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