mommy... you're so busy....

I admit I have always been busy in my life. I am the type of person who doesn't want to stay in one place. I love to go out or do something else once in a while. I was once known to be so "lakwatsera"... since I love going out with friends, even just to the houses of my friends just to make chika...

But when I got married, some things changed...well in some aspects. I am busy still but not that "lakwatsera" anymore. My priorities have shifted from myself to my family. Before, I used to go out with friends so often pero hindi na ngaun. I love bonding with Ate Bea and Denise more. I still love strolling in the malls but now with my 2 super kulit kids. It feels heaven when you see them so happy and satisfied kahit minsan naiinis nako sa sobrang kakaturo ng kung anu anu... hehehehe


Pero lately... I have been so so busy, juggling my career, family and personal life. I have so many things to do everyday. So many things going on in my mind, i have to think of the construction, bea's school activities, Denise's needs, household needs, work deliverables and some personal stuff. Nakaklimutan ko na nga minsan if nakakatulog ako eh! That's how busy I am and I do not realize that....


Pero do you know what made me realize that I have been very busy these past few days (or months already)? rather who made me realize that... Ate Bea.... She was always asking me "Mommy, me pasok ka pa?". And whenever I answer her "Yes Ate meron pa..." I will always get this reply... "Mommy, lagi ka naman umaalis eh... kahit wala kang pasok umaalis ka parin.. D2 ka nalang...." Parang nagising ako and I realized that I have been stealing the time for my kids already. It's breaking my heart pero I have no choice, It's a one woman team ika nga. I am the only one in charge of everything kasi wla si Nelson. How I wish I can explain that to them the way they will understand it...

For now I have no choice, konting tiis nalang anak... Mommy will be back home soon....