Month end na naman!!!!

Month end again...

Busy na naman ang Cypress Finance...
at month end means overtime... di bale looking forward naman ako sa month end ehh...
dami ako natututunan... there's a feeling of accomplishment everyday... Marami ako na ggain na learnings, magiging magaling akong Financial Analyst! Promise...

Makukuha ko rin ang PO8 level...**cross fingers*** :D

Envy and Jealousy...

these are 2 words that I hate most....Envy and Jealousy.

I've known jealousy since i was kid. I was jealous daw of my younger sister kasi she always gets the attention of mama. Hindi ko man napapansin na my reaction reflects jealousy na, basta nakakaramdam lang ako na niinis ako because i don't get the attention I was expecting from another person...kay mama. But later on I've learned na same pala kami ng feeling ng sister ko... me jelly feeling din sya sakin. Minsan kasi when your mind is set into something it omits other information. Like un, meron din palang kina jejelly sakin ang sister ko but what I was thinking before eh ako ung di napapansin. Jealousy shuts down your thinking capability...

Envy...you envy people because you think they have more than what you have right now, they have better car than yours, bigger house, bigger savings, higher pay, successful than you are and because you think they are happier than you. I know in myself that i do get envious sometimes, but I don't let it get into my nerve. I know it won't do me any good... I believe that everything will fall into its proper places at the right time. One thing I've learned in life is that you should not rush things into your life. God knows the perfect timing... Trust him for he has better plans than what you have in mind. He knows your desires and listens to your heart. If you envy other people's achievements, it hinders your own happiness... so try not to compare yourself with others, start counting your blessing. Could be that you have more than what that person has...

Jealousy is simply and clearly the fear that you do not have value.
Jealousy scans for evidence to prove the point - that others will be preferred and rewarded more than you. There is only one alternative - self-value.
If you cannot love yourself, you will not believe that you are loved.
You will always think it's a mistake or luck.
Take your eyes off others and turn the scanner within.
Find the seeds of your jealousy, clear the old voices and experiences.
Put all the energy into building your personal and emotional security.
Then you will be the one others envy, and you can remember the pain and reach out to them. ~Jennifer James

Jealousy in romance is like salt in food. A little can enhance the savor, but too much can spoil the pleasure and, under certain circumstances, can be life-threatening. ~Maya Angelou

In jealousy there is more self-love than love. ~François, Duc de La Rochefoucauld, Maxims, 1665

White Horse by Taylor Swift

Say you’re sorry, that face of an angel comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time coz I honestly believed in you.
Holding on the days dragged on, Stupid girl I should have known,
I should have known…

That I’m not a princess, this aint a fairytale
I’m not the one you’ll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell.
This aint Hollywood that was a small town.
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to come around …

Baby I was naïve, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance.
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know…

That I’m not a princess, this aint a fairytale
I’m not the one you’ll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell.
This aint Hollywood that was a small town.
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to come around …

And there you are on your knees,
begging for forgiveness, begging for me…
Just like I always wanted but I’m sorry

Coz I’m not your princess, this aint a fairytale
I’m gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now

And its too late for your and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now…

transfer... transfer... transfer...

I'm on this road again... again and again...

Why haven't I thought of these when I made a decision to leave DB....
...Transfer would mean new work environment, new people to work with, new learning curve... and adjustment, adjustments, adjustments....

I hate this feeling of being alone, and the feeling that you do not know the process... you do not know what to do, how to deal with the people and how to deal with the environment... Gosh!!!!

It makes me wonder why have I decided to leave?
1st - Finance work... i would want to go back to the real accounting work...
2nd - i want my normal life back... normal shift and normal sleep...
... i want to play with my kids after office hours...
...i want to teach Bea her lessons... I want to bring her to school in the morning...

Ok so these are the reasons why i decided to leave... without taking into considerations the other factors that should be considered...

Maybe it was just me... I should learn how to appreciate my current situation, this is life when I have decided to transfer... and i should bear with it. I know I will be ale to adopt to the changes... ako pa... Kaya ko to!!!!

Bea's 7th Birthday preparation...

It was actually a month long preparation... with lots of worries, computation, re-planning and everything... Gosh! I am not really sure if Bea's birthday will push thru... why? because of financial matters... you know!

I just resigned from DB and was new to Cypress. I had no pay since Aug and my next payday will be on Sept 25. That was my worry! Where will i get the funds?? I can't disappoint Bea... she has been waiting for that day to come. I know she has been counting the days till Sept 17... kakayanin ba ng puso ko makita si Bea na malungkot sa 7th birthday nya? A big NO!!!!

Buti nalang Daddy loves Bea so much.... and he was there to support her daughters big day...

3 weeks before Sept 17, while i was on vacation and completing my requirements for Cypress, I went to Divisoria to buy Bea's souvenir. The party's theme is Disney princess and Cars. So I went on hunting for good things to buy in Divi. What I have in mind is that they should be useful... less candies in the lootbags please. What I have chosen is Princess and Cars bag as lootbags, to be filled with pencils, notebooks, coloring books, stickers and hanky... useful right?

It was really fun! ako ang nag enjoy sa kakapili ng pwedeng ilagay na kasya sa budget ko. I only have 2k then, including fare and meals so I really have to watch what I was buying... Glad i was able to buy naman what I need and what was in my mind.

2 weeks to go... I have been searching and calling establishments for the chairs and tables. I want to compare prices kung saan mas makakamura... My idea was to have a clown, kahit walang face painter, basta may games that kids will enjoy. With balloon decorations para maganda rin. But my idea equals money... balloon decorations will already cost me 3,500.

1 week to go but I was still torn on the venue.... Bahay or clubhouse? Bahay would mean renting tents with worries if it rains while clubhouse is a little costly but with less worry... kaya sa clubhouse nalang...

Balloon decor... sabi ni Chec ako nalang daw ang mag decorate. With a little help from youtube's how to videos, I will be able to decorate Bea's party with less cost. hehehe buti nalang Chec have brilliant ideas!!! Madali lang pala, effort lang ang kailangan... with this I've learned that I can have a new career as balloon decorator! hahahaha

Chairs and tables, it was with Jecas party needs of Ms. Lotis, I saw their site in the web... mai-try nga... I booked for their Clown and face painter and tables and chairs for 70 persons with out any deposit...san kapa?

Everything is going as planned... food nalang ang kailangang isipin... 1 week to go and I am still thinking if it will push thru... I was already crossing my fingers and was praying to Him to guide me. I'll let Him take care of the rest... i don't like to worry too much... i know He will be there to help me as always....

Goodbye DKS....

It has been 2 years since I set foot in this company.... Deutsche Knowledge Service....

I admit I really wanted to be part of this organization when I was still in Splash. I have heard good things about the company, about work, schedule, pay and bonuses. And a friend of mine confirmed that what i was hearing about the company are all true... Like the bonuses... she was hired in Sept 2008 with twice as much as her salary in her previous work and she got a month bonus in Feb 2009. Gosh! a month bonus?!? I want that! I never experienced that! So I was really eager to apply for any post... And I didn't get a hard time applying for one. It was a 3-day hiring process. 1st day - phone interview, 2nd day interview with HR and 3rd was with my team lead Nic and feeling team lead Jezer hehehehe just kidding!

After that I got a call from HR that I passed the interview and I need to drop by their office for the JO (Job offer). Though I was a bit disaapointed when I saw the offer (it was not what I expected...) I still accepted and just looked forward to the bonuses hehehehe.

The work was really different, it was a total shift actually. I was shocked initially but I have learned to love my process. The people also are quite different, it seems that they have their own world and I cannot penetrate! I felt so alone but I have also learned to accept that this is the BPO world... fast changing! people come and go!

But DKS gave me opportunites and memories i will never forget, i was able to have our house constructed because of the pay and the schedule. Me and my family were able to travel to bohol because of the MTA policy... things that a normal company won't offer and of course the car service, no worrying of going home late since the service will bring you home safe, right in front of your doorstep....

Now, as of this writing, I only have a day left with DKS. Tomorrow is the day, my last day with Deutsche. And I am feeling a bit sad honestly... I am worrying about my process and every thing.

I will miss the people who made my last day with DB memorable... I never thought I had made so much friends here. I will surely miss my superior who understands when I needed to take a leave because of family matters. I will miss my circle of moms friends and the demanding onshore. I will surely miss DKS.... my home for the last 2 years...